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My birthday this year is quiet simple. First celebration as a husband and wife and plus it's in Holy Ramadhan 1436H. A first Ramadhan as a husband and wife together with first mine birthday celebration as husband and wife also. Masya-Allah. What a great moment. Quick throwback, our first meeting also in Ramadhan last 2 years 

Around 5 minutes after the clock turn 12am on 9th July 2015, husbaby suprise me with something hide into his back of his pant. Hahaha. And I was like really shocked because I knew him as a person that doesn't really know how to suprise people. And YES I do crying that time. LOL, what a typical girl I am. 

Jeng ... Jeng... Jeng

He actually bought me a flower. What's really matter is, before this I kept asking him to buy me flower up to hundreds times, but he never did. In one case, when we were having quick vacation In Cameron Highland, he asked me to pick a flower by myself and he pay for it. LOL. That's not the way of giving a flower that I ever imagined. I refused that time, but last night I really couldn't resist his sweet suprise. This flower is from Japan technology, it does living up to 10 years. 

I think it's a great effort for someone like him to do research about a flower before buying for it for me. Auwwww. 

Before this, his plan was actually want to take me to a birthday dinner at Menara KL. It's suppose to be a suprise. But, accidently he use my phone to search for some information about it and forgot to clear my browser history. 

Hewhewhew... And after discussion, I've told him no need to waste money on this, instead we will celebrate Raya in one more week. It's okay. We can postpone it. I still want a dinner for both of us. And it just meant to be at the foodcourt at One Utama. We both love their Nasi Goreng Wok over there.

Just as simple as I wish, as the most precious gift that I ever had this year, is you My Husband. You are the apple of my eyes. 

P/S : My clumsy husbaby accidently left the receipt of the flowers on our makeup table. Hahaha. I snoop at it at first and then I thought, I still appreciate his effort to bring a little suprise.

With lots of love, I always love you Husbaby <3    X.O.X.O.

We R Married

    Right after Solemnization Ceremony

Hi Assalamualaikum. Being a full time housewife is the perfect time for me to update my blog. After a hustle and bustle we were facing in our relationship, and finally, alhamdulillah we were officially call husbaby and wife in last 18th of April 2015. 

My wedding card and bunting was design by my former bestfriend while I was studying i UITM Lendu, and yeah we are Masscommers. You may look up for her through FB , by searching Hidayah Noor.

The bride was hiding at the back there.

My henna artist was actually accidently forgot my date. Luckily I was asking her one week earlier about the timing she was about to come ( I am the type of likely to organize everything in order early ). She apologize as she couldn't make it on Friday night, as asking either I was okay if the henna was been carve on the Friday evening or not. For me, it shall be no problem at all as long I still have someone to carve the henna for me. Hihihi... FB; Suhana Mat Rais.

Right after the solemnization event, for sanding we just make it simple. There's no "tepung tawar" or "tepung gandum" or "tepung beras" and all the things. It's just us sit on the pelamin and take photos with our families, friends and neighboors. Believe me, it's a whole day event. All the peoples want to take photos with the bride and the groom, and what can I say is VERY LUCKY me

My sister a.k.a orang kuat majlis. She's intentionally came two days earlier to help me with the preparation of my wedding. If she was not there, I would probably die a night before my wedding *sigh*

My pretty bridesmaid. Syaziah Hanum, a former bestfriend of mine when we are in highschool. I love you my dear, wish you all the happiness is yours.

In Malay Wedding culture, we are actually are having two times wedding ceremony. First is, a wedding ceremony on the bride's side which is all the family members are gather all together for the first time ( bride and groom families ). And the second ceremony, which is more likely to be called Reception Ceremony which is optional whether to be held or not to be held. These big big big families will be gather once again in this second ceremony. And for us, our Reception Ceremony was on 9th of May 2015. 

This balloons accidently became our props while shooting for outdoor photography session in Taman Tasik Layang-Layang Selayang. It's borrowed from the visitor there. Thanks a lot for this balloons which make our photos nicer.

Some of the photos was taken by our professional photorapher lovely assistant. FB , Ain Radzi using our iPhone for our safekeeping. Thanks a lot too! 

Dear my friends and readers, pray for our happiness. I am really happy, as Allah grant my prayer for me to marry the person I love. And now, I am just a happy wife. Maybe it's still early, but we hope we can face this life all together. Frankly speaking, me and my husbaby are still in learning process. We learnt together, how to make our two different personalities to become harmony in all ways. It's not that easy, but we try.

For haters, I take all your negative thought for me to understand my weakness. To become a better person everyday. Some might say, "why need to upload this, why didn't keep this for my own". For me, I have my own reason. And don't need others approval for me to have my own reason. My blog is like a love jurnal for me and my husbaby. Starting we were dating, engaged and now MARRIED. Maybe in next 10 20 years, this blog can be dedicated to our future family. InsyaAllah. Phones memory might be broken (virus attack) , and albums can be lost also ( I have been experienced this. My Original birth cert and Diploma Cert also have been stolen after a thief break into my house a few years ago). And who knew, if accidently things got burnt down if our house in fire. I learnt a lots from my past.

More updates after this. InsyaAllah.

X.O.X.O.

intentionally 

When Apology Means Nothing

Why do people keep apologizing? Because they know they are doing wrong. BUT, to repeat the same mistakes is your choice whether you want to keep doing the same mistakes or not.

When you are there, you want to be here...
When you are here, you want more...
You asking for more money...
What are there for you before, seems not enough...
And demons are clapping their hands because they succesfully build the feeling of GREEDINESS & UNGRATEFUL.

When you are there, you always spend your time with me...
That time you treat me well like you wont see me again...
When you are here, you started to take me easy...
This time you treat me like everyday you will see me...

Sometimes you aware about your mistakes, but only sorry seems to be play through out your lips...
You start to abandon me, And you know NOTHING except SORRY.

Dear you,
I have feelings too. I have needs of belonging. I have needs to be needed. It's the time when I feel like I am giving up. When your sorry words, means nothing to me. When tge words sorry is just like a song lyric to me.

If SORRY was the lyric, I would happily dancing and move away from you.

Our Wedding Preparation's weeeee love it :)

As my previous posts AS I asked him save the money, he successfully bought me a RING and then, on a very surprisingly day, we tied the engagement note. I am proudly saying I am so lucky to have him. He does complete me, I guess lah.hehehe :P

The crazy us. cissss...hahaha

Truly, people said when in this engagement period there's a lot of problem will appear. Not just in your relationship, but the problem also bother your daily life. Believe me. Malay people said, "darah manis". Actually, "darah manis" is a term or proverbs for the bride-to-be, as the problems or any other disasters would likely to be happen in this phrases, engagement phrases. I don't know why it's called like this, or I help to translate in English for the foreign country's readers IT IS LIKE sweetened blood. From my understanding which is totally ridiculous, on why this PROBLEM and SWEETENED BLOOD is related, because when you blood taste sweet you will attract the mosquitoes. So when the mosquitoes come, you'll get diseases brought over by them eg : dengue or malaria. And, more problem to arise, when you need money to cure the diseases. It's all this sweetened blood FAULT. ahaha. Or maybe this "darah manis", will attract the vampire to suck your blood. It's sure a big problem, some more if the vampire is not handsome as Edward Cullen. hahaha. 

For me, in this phrase...we always get fighting with each other. You will always felt that you are not for each other. And, even worse for me, I met with an accident. Yes, a car hit me on last 05/09/14. 

My poor bike, now at the workshop already. My poor leg, bruises all over. 

On MC for a week. 

There's a lot of us whose really excited for our wedding, and one of them is my future-mother-in-law. She's a nice lady. Well, the reason I'm saying this is not because she'll be my future mother, but she's really nice. She even took care of me in my accident recovering period. She called my fiance to bring me at this Rins Suzana Bridal House. We arrived there at 4.30pm, but she was already there from 2pm! See, now you get what I mean that she's really nice, because she's really concern about his son wedding, I meant OUR ;)

My crazy fiance with his attempt outfit.

2nd pose. Which is more poyo!

You must wondering where's my picture, right? Keep on dreaming fellas. hahaha. I was so busy testing my outfit, and this fiance don't even bother to take my pictures. urghhhhh... I am so disappointed. Only my future-mother-in-law does take some pictures of mine for her referral. Nevermind, we kept it as a BIG SUPRISE okay ;P  You'll have to wait to our wedding. InsyaAllah, the wedding invitation will be coming soon.

Me, at Rins Suzana. I love the words on this prop. 

CONGRATULATIONS! you've got proposed! hahaha...

Okay then... See you again when I do have any interesting stories to be share. Oh ya, maybe on why to keep the Halal relationships is quiet tough, will faced a lots of hustles and bristles...

XOXO !!! I love you, AZ.

AZ 27th Birthday Suprise

Baby 27th Birthday's @ Bubba Gump Pyramid

His 27 birthday apparently fall on 24th of July 2014, for our first time celebration together as a lovely couple. errrrr...lovely ke? I was planning to celebrate on the 25th of July as it fall nicely on Friday so, we can have a dinner together and have a whole night date as we're Muslim was fasting in Ramadhan so only can eat after 7.30pm onward. As both of us is a shrimp lover, I decided to go to Bubba Gump Sunway Pyramid.

 And I was planning this dinner for a week to make sure it will go on smoothly and with the help from Ms Sumitra Karimuthu, their Marcom Manager on making the reservation as I accidentally bumped into e-mailing her ( NOT BLACKMAILING HER ). Thanks a lot Ms Sumitra :)

We arrived around 7.15pm. And here's the boss. :P hahaha. He's seem weird when I lead him to Bubba Gump as I told him we would have dinner somewhere else before that. 1st SURPRISE success-!

While waiting for the dinner, we of course doing our usual activities which was   ( cam-whoring-!) hahaha. 

The ambiance is so cool and you'll feel like you are at home because their staff is so so so friendly and I totally immersed by their services and the ambiance. 

The foods there is AWESOME-! 

We have this one called Bubba's After The Storm "Bucket of Boat Trash". The fish fillet and the fried shrimp is really good. We won't get tired of munching this two thing.

I ordered this "I'm Stuffed!" Shrimp. the best thing about this is, the crab meat is really tasty. And the rice is best to restore back our energy after a day of fasting. Yes, we do share the foods, as the portion is quit big.

And he has ordered Crazy Cajun Chicken. The mashed potatoes and their fries is totally marvelous. I love it also.

The peak of the surprise after all the surprises is the cake. I secretly went to one of the staff and ordered Chocolate Dream-Cake with Vanilla Ice-Cream. And they do ask me is it for birthday, and they say they will sent the cake once both of us finish the meals. So, they come after a while we finish our dinner with candle and song. They even ask my boyfriend to stand on the chair in the middle of the restaurant and ask my boyfriend to give a short speech. He's really shocked so he just say he love me, and went speechless after the they sing the song. hahaha... me, also didn't expect that the celebration would be that surprising. This the face of speechless PERSON. 2nd SURPRISE success-!

The birthday present for this birthday baby. hahaha.

A lot of "KISSES" from me to you. I am sure you wont get tired of the kisses ;P

3rd SURPRISE also success-! 

                

Anyway, on 29th of July 2014, alhamdullilah we are officially called  mr. fiancé & ms. fiancéé and were looking to be future husband and wife. Do du'a the best for us.

Thanks all for viewing. Do pray for us. I love you, XOXO-!!!

Happy Me

I started my 25th moments yesterday with a song sing by unauthorized singer at all, Mr AZ. This CRAZY OLD MAN really put an effort to make sure he's the one to wish for me. Well, what else I can say... "speecless" even though I re-act like euwwww... 

Dear Allah, Thanks for the chances You are giving me. As the automatically added one number to my age, I hope it will adding a million numbers of my faithful to my entire life. I am not regret of being old, as I know 25 isn't too old, but for certain people, they are really exaggerate about this age issue. 

Being old for me is being more closer to death. No one can escape from it. It's not a promise that you have to be old to meet the death, so... being able to enjoy your birthday is actually a bonus for a day as you are not die yet. Make sense huh. It's Allah whose determine it all. As His humble and try-to-be obedient "slave" , I 'll take this birthday date as the day for me to try to obey His order as much as I can. Who know when we will die right?

Honestly, I really felt being love on my birthday. hahaha... On my facebook's timeline full with the wishes all-day long. Long time friends that we haven't contacting each other also showed up on the timeline <3 it makes all the memories rolling in back in my mind. AHHHHH, I miss all of you.

Dear AZ, 

Hey, I am turning 25 already. I am not getting younger you know. Please start saving your money and buy me a ring. hehehe... I don't want a ring with a big-shiny diamond on it, I just want a simple one as long I know you will be there beside me forever, either I am 25 or 52. So, then you can help me gaining more pahala BY being an obedient wife-of-yours in the later :)

9/7/89-9/7/14

Love XOXO -!!!

Porcelain Vase

Why am I said that me myself a porcelain vase... 

Because , porcelain vase is so pretty to see, too flawless to touch but very fragile. No, I am not saying I am pretty as porcelain vase, but my heart do fragile like it.I am trying hard everyday to present myself to others people as cheerful as I can, but deep inside it was me have to bear everything.

A porcelain vase...once broken, it's no other way to put it back as the original appearances. Perhaps the touch won't be so smooth as it used to be...The beauty, would be the same even you glued the broken parts together again. Just like my heart, OUR heart. The scar would be forever. 

People say, why keep reminding the past when the future might bright ahead in front of us? It wasn't my wanted to stuck behind the past, it was the scar that make me so fearful to face what come ahead. I don't want the same things that causes the scars, make the existing scar hurt even more harder than before. Am I too judgmental against YOU?

It's not me whose choose to be a negative person... I always trying to be positive as much as I can. But with you, when all my side the bad one and the good one became visible to you, I am becoming that way. I am afraid you'll hate me for my negativeness, too afraid that one day you might don't see any good seeds in me anymore as all the way you only talked about my negativeness. You must know, when you someone that all positive in front of you, that because you don't them yet. There's still a barrier between you and their attitude before they show off. But, you have been with me all the time. All this things you can see clearly already. 

Dear you, dear you the one that I love beside my family... I hope you would understand me. A porcelain vase, was fragile some more it used to be broken before. I don't ask you to carry it over your head all the time, I don't ask you look at it over the time... I am just asking you to take care of it, as it might be broke if you let it go from your grasp. If you think you couldn't hold on onto it anymore, just place it on somewhere you think it was safe...and I am willingly to take care of the porcelain vase by myself. 

A note to YOU;

It's my mistakes. All this time, it was me who caused all the trouble. You are perfect enough. I am a PORCELAIN VASE.

I love you, XOXO-!

Love At First Sight. P/S : I love You Baby, always.

Al-kisah bermula...jeng jeng jeng... 

Masa ni, aku baru menempuhi alam pekerjaan. Well bese la. Alam, alam, alam, pastu ALAMAK-!. hahaha... alam bayi > alam kanak-kanak > alam remaja > alam persekolahan > alam stido (study atau kata laennye, ehe) > skang ni alam perkerjaan > alam PERKAHWINAN (ta sabow-!) > alam berumah tangga > alam kematian. Satu alam je ak ta mao cakap...alam ghaib, bukan takut, ta berani jep.hehehe

STOP merepek. hahaha, masa aku memula start keje, mase tu kerja kat Melaka. jauh woooo tempat keje ak ngn tempat aku tinggal time tu. sewa bilik je mase tu, sengkek lagi... :'( ingat lagi aku, nak pergi keja kene tunggu 45minit awal nak naek bas, sebab aku takowt tertinggal bas. Pergh! gigih. Pastu, aku  ternampak advertisement yang ni kat somewhere. this is I called my first love at my first sight.

DAMN! cun la plak. kebetulan time ni, memang ak tahu bawak skuter je pun. 03 April 2011.

Start la pergi usha-usha kat beberapa kedai moto. mase ni plat number booked by someone WVF9789. tapi sebab aku pikir, aku ta nak bergantung kat orang laen. aku pun booked number laen, yang current ni. banyak halangan yang terpaksa ku tempuhi, berlari, bergolek, tergolek, terpenyek mcm2 la. fuhhhh...dapat jugak aku memiliki. No plate memang custom-made sbb nak sama ngn besday aku. 9789, leyh sambut besday sama-sama. heee...

First day , kat kedai lagi time ni. Baru nak bawak balik. Dalam plastik lagi jah... 10 Jun 2011.

Bila da senang ade kesenangan kite kene la tolong orang yang dalam kesusahan. Barulah BARAKOHHHH. terima kasih, itu je ustazah nak bagitau anak-anak murid sekalian. hihihi...

Well, korang pun taw new vehicle, ta sampai 1000km lg kene la bawak slow2 je. Aku hari-hari duk round Melaka.  Selepas sebulan ...

19 July 2011. sepuloh hari selepas besday ku yang 22 tahun. Die pun nak celebrate besday first jugak.

Aku dulu ta berapa stabil sangat mental so, memalam bila jiwa kekacauan je, start je moto... luah perasaan atas moto, cam moto aku ni memahami aku. sampai tenang. ni kul 12 malam kat depan Stadhuys. DETIK 12 MALAM. hohoho...sorang-sorang.

Sebab baru keja, so first raya kena la berkorban kena la keja. kasi senior manager cuti raya. ta sedeyh sangat sebab time ni berbunga-bunga berchenta ngan moto. mesti orang ingat aku gila.

Pagi raya Aidilfitri, 30 Ogos 2011. Ngan Logan , kawan sekerja yang ta sambut raya. Tengah dengar takbir raya weyh time ni-!

Saman ngan Majlis Bandaraya; 07 Ogos 2011.

korang nak taw sebab apa, sebab time aku nak tengok wayang aku parking la kat tempat yang ta boleyh parking... Madagascar kalau ta salah aku. Pastu aku tengok jam nak dekat kul 5, aku pikir orang Majlis da nak balik. siap la, turun dari wayang kul 9 malam , saman die ikat kat side-mirror.hahaha...setahun lepas tu baru aku baya.

Rajin gile aku bawak pergi snowwash dulu. Hampir setiap minggu. Sebab aku rasa auto gembira tengok die bersih.

05 November 2011, Serdang Selangor. tengah study kat UPM time ni.

Pernah jumpe kembar no plate. Cina kat tempat keje lama aku. Dia kata, no ni banyak ONG-! hahaha...

Dia nak no plate aku, memang ta la aku let-go. "let it go...let it go..." tu dalam citer Frozen Disney je okeyh.

2013-!!! bertukar. GO GO GO Power Rangers. hahaha.. 06 April 2013.

Same person, almost same plate number, but different feeling-! Just acting around. This is me mase berambut pendek. Dulu Robin Hood , sekarang Rapunzel. cehhhhh...

P/S; Now I already have love at 2nd sight. AZ, I promise I will love you, as long you love me too. XOXO-!