HURT

What's hurting you is hurting me too. And my heart can't take it when I am the one whom putting you in pain. When I saw those scars, those marks I feel bad on my own. Why should I hurt the one I love the most. 

I really doesn't mean to do that. It's just the anger build from inside. Even I don't realize it WHEN, WHAT, WHY, WHO & HOW that can be happening. Perhaps I just get to emotional with my feelings. The fears of being alone, the fears of being forgotten and the fears of sharing you with others. 

I am letting you go, I just cannot think wisely, cannot think properly. It's just me is not me at all. When I am putting myself in your place I felt sorry for you. But, every-time, every-now-and-then I keep repeating the same mistakes, the same things that I really shouldn't do at the first place. 

"I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do, 

And I've hurt myself by hurting you..."

The End...

When Apology Means Nothing

Why do people keep apologizing? Because they know they are doing wrong. BUT, to repeat the same mistakes is your choice whether you want to keep doing the same mistakes or not.

When you are there, you want to be here...
When you are here, you want more...
You asking for more money...
What are there for you before, seems not enough...
And demons are clapping their hands because they succesfully build the feeling of GREEDINESS & UNGRATEFUL.

When you are there, you always spend your time with me...
That time you treat me well like you wont see me again...
When you are here, you started to take me easy...
This time you treat me like everyday you will see me...

Sometimes you aware about your mistakes, but only sorry seems to be play through out your lips...
You start to abandon me, And you know NOTHING except SORRY.

Dear you,
I have feelings too. I have needs of belonging. I have needs to be needed. It's the time when I feel like I am giving up. When your sorry words, means nothing to me. When tge words sorry is just like a song lyric to me.

If SORRY was the lyric, I would happily dancing and move away from you.